Nicola's Baby Blog

My Birthday and Endless Noise

It was my 35th birthday the other day.  I had a pretty good day and received loads of gifts.  My Mum and Stepfather had given me so,me money as a birthday present so I spent the morning shopping.  I got news jean, tops, bras, make-up, everything!  Stephen had Abby and Jake with him so I even got to make numerous trips into the dressing room - a rare treat for me.

At my request, my birthday cake was a carrot cake.  I love the creamy icing...

As I type, Jake is driving me crazy.  We've had a terrible few days with him.  He simply hasn't stopped moaning and his lack o communication from him is proving to be our biggest issue.  Stephen feels that Jake's mood is caused by frustration.  He feels that Jake wants to communicate but doesn't know how.

I thought that Jake was unwell, but now, four days later, I don't know what to think.

Right now, he is in his bed and he is supposed to be going to sleep.  Instead, I can hear him crying and moaning.  But I don't know what to do for him.  Believe me, we've tried it all.  Food, drink, pain killers - I wish that we could solve his obvious problem, but I don't know how. 

I feel very, very frustrated and upset by it because I want more than anything to soothe him, to calm him.  I hate seeing him upset.

Is it autistic behaviour?  Is it an illness, tummy ache or ear ache?  Is it frustration because he wants to talk but doesn't know how to even try?  Or is it simply naughtiness?

I'm so tired.

I have to laugh because this started out as an entry about my birthday, but soon got sidetracked by the racket coming from Jake's bedroom.  He looked exhausted before he went up there so I'm hoping that he'll fall asleep soon and the moaning will cease until he wakes tomorrow morning.  Actually, to be more precise, I would prefer that the moaning would not start again in the morning.

We'll see.

14.11.07 02:08